I am so sorry if my post sounded like I'm blaming you for not doing anything. Far from it. I hear a woman with a beautiful heart who is just downright exhausted from trying to hold this together for everyone involved.
I spent five long years overturning every rock I could think of to protect my children. I went to the domestic violence centers, churches, family psychiatrist, anywhere and everywhere I could think of...all to no avail. I was investigated for child abuse five times (I've never even yelled at my children, let alone hurt them) and my ex called the police on me constantly. He tried to get me committed to a psychiatric hospital twice and even had me chased down on the highway by the state police. In the end, I failed. He kidnapped my children, locked me out of my own house and left me homeless. I don't have a supportive family so I had nowhere to go. I lived in shelters and my vehicle for close to a year when I was finally able to find my current apartment.
I tell you this because I feel the same heartache you must be going through right now. We do all we can and there's simply no help even from the places that are supposed to help. We can't find any light at the end of the tunnel and we try to stay strong for everybody else growing more tired each passing day.
I honestly wish I could take this away for you. Please know that I care and I'll be here to listen day or night.
P.S. I was thinking about learning how to make a voo-doo doll so I could make one of my ex. Do you want me to make one of your husband's ex? LOL
Oh that's terrible what you went through with your ex husband, I am so sorry Do you have your children back now, or can you at least see them?
At the moment I am more interested in a voodoo doll of the current psychiatrist who is responsible for this whole mess My husband's ex is certainly to blame for a lot, but she's severely mentally ill herself and that does excuse her * to a point* . Obviously it is neglient that she's withdrawn from this process completely, but I can't completely blame her given her state of mind.
I hope we'll get some answers today.
As for my work on lifestyle changes: I am still sticking to the WW program and have not cheated , except sunday when the stress took too much for me to be able to think. I've been able to walk every day exept yesterday due to the feeling of having to wait all day and not being free to do anything. I am planning to take a walk to the library today no matter what.