Glad this is helping you, meditation soothes the mind!
I've seen my psychologist . She explained to me that I have depression because I quit using medical opiods , which I was on for the previous 4 years due to the severity of my physical illness.
The opiods helped to repress the trauma from being hospitalised, vulnerable and very ill. Now I am off them, and suddenly depressed and gaining weight. I am using food as an emotional crutch, where my meds were my crutch before ( I just didn't know it). I never took more of my meds than prescribed, but because the dose was so high they were acting like an anti depressant.
So now, she's going to help me get through my trauma and deal with my feelings in a healthy manner without crutches. It will be challenging, but I want to go for it!