Keep that hope alive! I have a feeling many, many of us can, at least in a general way, identify with how you're feeling.
I really have only two concerns - loss of income and financial ruin this late in my career/life. Other than that, I'm good.
Hey, we have to laugh when we can!
Seriously, though...our big, big thing in life has been traveling, and we've done a fair amount, and have detailed plans to do a helluva lot more once we're retired, but even if I've traveled my last, I have good memories, and I'll just pivot to something else to keep me occupied. Survive and adapt, right? That's always been my attitude.
I can tell by the photos you post...you have a talent for looking for and finding the little things that bring joy and purpose, and that's all you need to do right now to keep you going.
Every day, find a funny/happy/joyful little detail, like a rainbow on your wall, a drop of dew on a blade of grass, your shadow stretched by the sun...and grab hold, savor it, and put it in your little happy pocket, where you keep the good things, and when you're feeling a little overwhelmed, pull something out of that pocket and remember that feeling when you found that thing. That'll help you, even just a little.
My little joy today: our Christmas hamper came. That was nice enough, but in looking at the shipping label, I see that it passed through Maidstone, of all places, and that made me think of
Morning Glory, and by extension, all the wonderful folks here on the forum. See? A little bit of happy to stick in my pocket for later.